Revolution: Still

This time is even worse than the last. Renal failure, ventilator and a comatose state. It’s so up in the air right now and I not prepared to be able to handle it. I just want my mom better but I don’t know if it’ll happen this time.

There is nothing more I want right now than for my mother to be healthy and happy and to have just one full year, 365 days, where she feels good and isn’t sick. My mom is currently in the ICU with a breathing machine. It isn’t fair.

Important hair question(s)?

And a quick update. Hi everyone! I’ve been overwhelmed by life events and career changes and school so I am not posting as much as id like but I’ll do my best in future. It’s amazing how little free time I have these days.

Anyway, FIRST serious question for followers and non-followers, while I’m thinking about it. I’ve been taking extremely good care of my hair lately and I’m going to be getting the current color mess removed and re-colored professionally. I have very little success with home removal processes. So what is the professional process like on thin hair? My hair isn’t the thinnest ever but it’s super fine but handles product extremely well for what it is.

SECOND, I may or may not be going for extensions after I re-color. Reason is simple, my hair is fine and somewhat thin and I just want more body and length. What kind of extensions should I go for? I don’t want clip ins or tape. I had both at one point. Clips, I don’t want to worry about them looking the same every day and tape is just not fun to deal with for me.

Okay go! And thanks in advance

I need kidney help

So, I’ve been having some really terrible back pain lately and it’s so bad at night. I thought originally that it was the mattress I have but I bought a topper and slept in a different bed on vacation with the same results. It’s so damn sore. In my lower to middle back and now the pain is spreading to around my sides above my hips and specifically hurting worse on my left side (non-appendix). I’m seeing my doctor this week because I can’t take having to sleep with a pillow between my legs anymore to try and relieve it. I just want some input now.

So back injury? Kidney ailments? Something else? Crohn’s related perhaps? I just want some real world input.

I’m way too sensitive to things, but in all honesty I just hate people’s stupidity and unnecessary rudeness. It’s probably not normal that I think deeply into it and want to cry but I cry about everything. It’s part of me. This is completely passive-aggressive over someone’s Facebook status but I really needed to at least vent that little bit out.
So. Stressed. So. frustrated.

Apologies to my followers. I’ve severely neglected my tumblr for a few weeks now. I promise I’m alive

I need help though! Ladies with white swimsuits, I must know how you keep your suits bright white. Mine got dirty in the ocean a couple weeks ago during vacation. I soaked it in a bleach/water solution and now the dirt spots have turned yellow in some places. How do I get these out?!! This is my nicest suit (my splurge, $80 Victorias Secret suit). I probably shouldn’t have worn it in the ocean in the first place, but I had no issues last year doing so. 


The fact that this morning I was on YouTube and stumbled upon Robin Williams episodes of Sesame Street and watched them, and then seeing the terrible news later, just saddens me and freaks me out a little. What a talented man gone too soon to something that I battle as well.

On the note of being freaked out, the whole “thinking about something and then seeing it a bunch later or the next day” thing happens to me all too frequently. I’ve always wondered if it’s just me or clairvoyance.

O Captain, my captain.

(Source: jamesfrancio, via primaryclone)